Narrow Escape

At every time I think about narrow escape
My memory popped out that my life would lose not gain
It was very scary and now I feel a lot of pain
At that time I could not think anything but my fate

During Pol Pot time everybody life was made
By the Khmer Rouge for use to be alive or dead
In my case at that time I had no hope to be alive
My life was like a drop of water in the sky

When the wind blew it would drop dew and you could not find
Anywhere or any evidence on the ground
This meant that my precious life was over at that night
I could not even cry or make any sound

I was very scared to death that my life was profound
Anything I had at this time would go down
You might be wondering what I was talking about
Please dear friend that I am going to tell you how

My true story at this time I was not very proud
Because I used my life to find food for my family
At that evening we all had only broth with the crowd
My family told me that they were still hungry

So I had to find food for them at this degree
And we all were from Aristocrat family
Anybody else including me felt the same
But they pushed me to go solve this problem

I was only the princess girl at that time
We lived in the luxury lives like in the heaven
In this war I was the only one who did this for them
I looked for food everyday and night very constant

Everybody else got food for oneself at that moment
I did this for them to eat but not for me
My mother and my sister used me for their starvation
They could not stand because we were from royal family

So poor me the princess girl did for them as they pleased
I could refuse it if I did not want to do
But I thought about my family first instead of me
I found food wood and carried water so they could use

I never did like this in my life and that it was true
We had many servants with all kinds of work to do
Almost four years of Pol Pot time of which I suffered
At every time my family ate and I got hurt

Before I left to find food I always said the same words
If you did not see me coming back you all would heard
That meant I would be dead somewhere in the field
Because the Khmer Rouge saw anybody they would kill

With or without reason you could not make a deal
At no matter what you could not even say anything
They killed us without remorse for their own will
So everybody had a hard life of living

After dinner it was still very bright and I started living
The hut with sadness hard broken and felt feared for my life
I went to the rice field which was already harvested and cried
My heart was beating very fast while I was picking

One or two grains of rice of each plant and keep looking
Around with fear that my life would be finishing
By the Khmer Rouge who did not want us to look for food
They always warned us not to do for our own good

If they saw us they would kick us hard with their boots
They cruelly tortured us to death then they killed us
Or shot us and left our bodies in the fields or woods
They liked to play their games of killing and did not rush

That was what I was feared for their if they must
It took a very long time to pick us those grains of rice
Because there were almost no grains of rice for us
I kept looking around and also looked at the sky

It would be dark soon and kept thinking in my mind
I gathered these grains of rice and I was still alive
I hoped that I would get these rice for my family
I felt helpful to save them and I was very happy

Oh my gosh my hope melt away and I was dizzy
When I saw four spies standing on the other side
I got down into the water and scooted over quickly
I layed down for hours and knew for sure I would die

I prayed to my dad many times to help saving my life
I was freezing in the shallow water for a while
I wandered that these four spies were already gone
I scooted forward a little to see these bad icons

Whether they were still there and looked for me upon
Oh my gosh they were few feet away beyond
My expectation and was very scared to death
I saw they spread their arms and held each other ahead

And also they spread their legs apart and I would be dead
Then I scooted backward slowly and I was afraid
If I moved fast the water would make strange sound
If I did not moved their legs would hit my head at this round

I prayed to my dad and say goodbye if I was found
Again I would never see my family around
This was frightened and the last time of my young life
How very scared I was and I would not even describe

I stayed still like statue and could not even cry
I heard the water sound moving forward to the other side
But I still stayed in cold water and froze to death
It was for a while and I scooted slowly like a cat

To look at the other side if they were still there instead
Of going away even they got very mad
I saw them on the dam and waited for me to get up
So they were ready to shoot me for nonstop

Their goal to see me if I got up and popped
Out of the water so in that way they could stop
Me preventing from escaping away at this problem
Then I scooted back and hid in a long period of time

These were the Khmer Rouge did according to their system
To kill us and accused us that we committed the crime
I froze to death and my body started to get numb
I was so afraid if the daylight would come

And I had no choice to get shot and died in the bump
When they killed us they left our bodies there and never dumped
Out of the field or woods to let others could see
And I could not say goodbye to my own family

If they left at this time I would really feel released
As the night passed by I heard the singing of the rooster
I saw them standing there and they did not want to let me free
I had no hope to stay alive any further

Because the second singing of the rooster came louder
I kept praying to my dad if I could get away
If the Khmer Rouge stayed until the light of the day
I saw sky getting brighter and clearer

Then I knew for sure at this time of my life was over
Thank God I did not see them and I felt much better
I started to get up slowly and looked around
To see if they still hid somewhere on the other ground

But I did not see them and heard any strange sound
I should run for my life and forgot about the rice
The spies thought that I escaped away out of this bounce
So why they left and were mad because I did not die

This princess girl thought about her family then her own life
I looked for the bag all over and I found it
I was so happy that my family would stay alive
With this they would be happy of what I did

I was still scared from last night in order to feed
Their stomachs and sacrificed of what they needed
This was not the first time I looked for food for them
They pushed me to do this to solve the problem

Since this war started in 1975 until this time
But this problem was not over if they found who had forced
To eat then the spies would say this was the crime
They did not hurt my family but me for good

Would you do this like me for your family moved
To find anything for them including veggies and roots
You did not get to eat but instead you get hit
How did you feel about your sacrifice for it

Anybody found food for oneself for own credit
In Pol Pot time they did not share food for a bit
Each one did oneself for this kind of starvation
They did not do like old time for this situation

One more problem still scared me for this fascination
What was happened if the spies stayed somewhere and watched
Whom who got out there after they did their formation
By stretching their legs and arms so they could hit or touch

Then I would be found right away and get caught
My life would be over that I could not run or fought
This was the second escape from the field to the hut
I might be seen from far away and get killed on the spot

It was far for them to catch me but I would get shot
I ran fast by looking around at the same time
The huts were not far and aligned to same lot
If I could not run fast to solve this problem

I would do half body walking to hide from them
By bending my back and head which were very slim
Finally I got into our hut with the wet clothes
I wanted to sneeze but first I had to close

By using my fingers to squeeze tightly to my nose
So other spies would not hear the noise I made
I was still scared to death by seeing they walked in a row
I never thought that I was alive instead of dead

I changed my wet clothes and crawled into the bed
By saying no words because this was a code red
I was shaking and cried silently under the blanket
They sent me to death and what happened if I would get

Caught on this narrow escape and I would never forget
This nightmare and criteria that I had just met
I love my family especially my mother
She never had life like this and she had to suffer

Nobody said a word and started to roll a wheel
Of working to death at every single day
They kept talking to us repeatedly not to steal
We did not care anymore whatever they would say

We could die anytime without reason anyway
We only prayed whether we would die or stay
Alive with our family or not with Gods’ will
If we were lucky we thought we were maybe still

To see the sun or the moon or the hills
We  were staying alive without the deal
Also at that morning I whispered to my sister’s ear
Not to cook rice for a few days because I would fear

There were heavily spies everywhere so they could hear
Because the walls always had eyes and ears
If you cooked rice they knew right away about last night
And you did not say anything even you would try

So they came to get me and I would die
Just right on the spot wherever I would be
And I would be dead without saying goodbye
To you all and who would get food for the family

I did not want you to suffer without me
Who could find food and supplies at this situation
Try to act that you know nothing which was the best key
So I could stay alive to release your starvation

Without me how could they stay alive in this condition
My oldest sister could never do anything at all
My nephew was still a little boy in addition
My mom was part of the royal family after all

How could they do things to survive if I recalled
So why I tried to stay alive and feed them food
I planted the sweet potatoes and spinned myself like a ball
To look for food everywhere if I could

In my true story it was up to you to decide
I was very young and only thing in my mind was food
Wood and water wherever I would be able to find
You did like me or not or did whatever you could

I wish the would would have peace if they should
Only to population will hurt deeply and suffer
They will live peacefully and have plenty of food
And all of us will live happily ever after

Please all Gods help the nation stay in peace forever
Live the good lives and keep loving each other
It does not matter who you are and where you come from
Or what religions you all have it is not bothersome

Staying together like a bunch of sticks is not seldom
So the enemies cannot break you all easily
Only yourself like one stick you get broken even you jump
Hating each other is the main point of creating a war